The Devil's Carnival - Theatrical trailer

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RAZORBLADE By: Amaranthe

Crossing paths defending faith

Face the truth I'm balancing a razorblade

Time has come the game is on

Step inside a world of pain

I'm divine I fight so I can break these chains

Let me be the enemy

The rules will never change

Nothing will stand in my way

Adrenaline runs in my veins

Justice prevails and my name's

Has entered the scene I

Going up to the top

Never stop

Chorus: Never give it up never fall never drop

You gotta give it up to the beat of your heart

And if you don't we take it from the start

Going up to the top

Never stop

Never gonna fail if you fall you get up

Surrender to the beat

From the pulse of your heart

And if you don't we take it from the start

Ticking clock a life in vain

Left alone the die is thrown a clashing pain

Just a brick a false charade

Crushing down like heavy rain

Time has come the ticket to eternal fame

Against all odds I rule this play

There's a darkness in my veins

Nothing will stand in my way

Adrenaline runs in my veins

Justice prevails and my name's

Has entered the scene I

Chorus:....

See through the endless array

With the light's that are guiding our way

Going up to the top

Never stop

Never gonna fail if you fall you get up

Surrender to the beat

From the pulse of your heart

And if you don't we take it from the start

Chorus:.....

It's weird thinking back to when I was younger. I used to be invisible, but I'm not anymore. However, I met a guy I went to high school with when I was out on town the other night, and he reminded me that he used to see me, even then. And I realised he was right. So I guess it must have been mostly in my head.

First outfit picture.. I finally have a mirror so that I can see how I look before I leave the apartment.

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The photographer is Annie Leibovitz. Click the picture to read about her and her work.

Taylor Swift as Rapunzel

Scarlett Johansson as Cinderella

Rachel Weisz as Snow White

Vanessa Hudgens as Sleeping Beauty

Anyhow.. This episode featured a whole new song, and I completely fell in love with it. I was above and beyond when I found the full studio version on YouTube yesterday. I dare not think about how many times I've heard it so far. The lyrics are great, and it's so upbeat I can't stop smiling. I guess that's why I've heard it so many times, because despite the lyrics being sort of sad, and they make me think a bit too much, I still feel happy when listening to it.

So I thought I'd share it. 

I realise this is a very random, and "boring" post, but I am epicly bored, as I just finished a school project. For some reason I'm totally worn out, and I feel kind of empty. I guess it's because it's sunday, and I have nothing to do. If it wasn't for total lack of energy, and the fact that I don't want to move out of my bed, I could do more school work. But right now I can't focus enough to bring myself to open another book.

Perhaps I have a picture somewhere I can edit or something. I just want today to pass, and tomorrow to come along, so that I can slip out of this dream like state of mind.

This is the original. It was done by Cando C on MakeupBee. Click the picture to get directly to see this, and her other wonderful work.

Here's my version of it.

"The only way to get smarter, is by playing a smarter opponent." - Fundamentals of Chess 1883

"The greatest enemy will hide in the last place you would ever look." - Julius Caesar 75 BC

This last quote really made me think, and made me wonder what it ment, and at the end of the movie I got the answer to that. These next two quotes are from the end titles when there's a list of facts told by various experts on pschycology and such.

?In religion the ego manifests as the devil, and of course no one realizes how smart the ego is because it created the devil so you could blame someone else.? -Dr. Deepak Chopra M.D.

?There is no such thing as an external enemy, no matter what that voice in your head is telling you. All perception of an enemy is a projection of the ego as the enemy.? -Dr. Deepak Chopra M.D.

Now how about that. At first I thought that it's not completly like that, that we do all have enemies of some kind. But no, I accept this as the truth. All the people in the world, in chase of power, money and so on create their own enemies, and believe they have enemies because they are blinded by their goal, and their imagined enemies end up thinking the other way around, and then you have it going.

I find this to be true for myself as well. There are people I believe to be my enemies because they have done something to me, or done something to make my ego turn them into enemies, and then my ego make me believe they are really my enemies. It makes me believe that those people intentionally do the things they do solely to hurt me in some way. When in reality they act their way, because they're driven by their own ego in their pursuit of their own goals.

And with that I now know that I have no real enemies. That the real enemy is within me, and that my ego is what I need to overcome. I realise that the people I saw as my enemies are just people. It doesn't change the way I feel about them per say, but they are no longer branded as "enemies". They are just people blinded by their own ego, unable to look past it and see the consequences of their actions. So the way I see it, those people are not my friends, nor my enemies.. They are just people.

I have seen the musical on stage in London, and that was a marvellous experience. You simply can't compare anything to seeing something like that on stage. However, I love it when musicals are made into movies. It's a whole other experience, and it makes it more real, in a way. And seeing this movie in all its glory on the big screen was breathtaking. No, it's not prettyfied, it's like seeing real people and real emotions. It's not normal to belt out songs while crying, but oh my, that was a whole new world. Anne Hathaway might not be a world class singer, but her take on the role of Fantine was fantastic. And Hugh Jackman did a wonderful, lifelike Jean Valjean. Even Russel Crow surprised me. I sat with goosebumps all the way through. So go see it people. I would definately reccomend giving it a chance, even those of you who for ever more swear to the holy world of theatre.

I will definately go see it again. Next time I'll bring my mum. We saw it together in London, and I think it would be really nice to share the movie experience as well.

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Today's makeup. 

I've tried several diets myself, but without result. I tried Fedon, didn't work. I tried Ketolyse, which made me sick, and horrible to be around because I was angry all the time. This, however, is no miracle cure. It works like a miracle, but it is not a DIET, that you do for a short period and then stop. It's a lifestyle, that is all about eating healthy. Basicly, it's about not eating sugar, potatoes, pasta, white flour, things that come in cans and bags. It's about eating clean, natural products, and just small amounts of rice (preferably brown) or wholegrain pasta and such. 

This is a VERY short explanation of what it's about. This is no big secret, it's something we all know, if we just use our heads. You might think that this takes forever, but this workes fast, if you just do it properly. I have always had trouble loosing weight, but this lifestyle made me loose 10 kg in aproximately one and a half month. And I haven't gained it back. After a while I dropped another 5-6 kg, by sticking to this. I am now half way to my final goal, of 65 kg. I haven't been living very healthy this past year, because of many things. But.. Now I'm continuing the journey, and if I'm lucky, I'll have reached my goal when summer arrives. Maybe even before that.

So drop those fancy wonder diets, and do it the proper way. Eat healthy, and exercise. I didn't exercise when I started this two years ago, so it works without, but everyone knows the body needs exercise.

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That was me then..

This is me now.

Yes, I know. It's not a full body shot, but I didn't have any.

Fly

 Someone's Watching Over Me

 Wake Up

 So Yesterday

 Gypsy Woman

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I'm much more satisfied with this picture, than with the Night Elf one. Even though I spent more time editing, as I had to get my little "dragon" friend into the picture, it was a lot easier to do this one. Perhaps because I've had a better day, and I was more inspired. But I think it helped that I was more certain about how I wanted this one to look when I was done with it. 

What do you think?

Glee (originally by Band Aid) - Do They Know it's Christmas?

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This is a picture inspired by another song by Kamelot. This too is from their recent album, Silverthorn, and the song I drew inspiration from was Veritas. Veritas means truth, and the original story is about two brothers, whom after their sisters tragic death keep it a secret what really happened to her. They swear to each other to keep it a secret, but as a constant reminder to themselves, they burn the word Veritas on their chests.

"In the mirror my reflection lies to me.

That is not the man I want to see.

But every harvest takes me closer to my aim.

I will be there as soon as darkness falls.

My life is but a heartbeat away, and all you ever had will soon belong to me.

In morte ultima veritas.

You will kneel before me and you will confess that I'm God.

Vincit veritas in omni re.

save me your prayers for death is the answer to life."

 Kamelot: Veritas (Silverthorn)

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This week I have my last exam this semester. More precisely, it's tomorrow. And I'm done. D.O.N.E! I've worked my ass off with my presentation, and I've read almost every page of the curriculum. What's left of it is one article, and a few pages of another article that made me want to scream. Yes! I think I could work more, and make it better. But it's good enough, and I'm happy with it. And, I look forward to present my work tomorrow. But even more, I look forward to taking a real time out and enjoy Christmas.

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Right now my head overflows with information. It's information overload in there. It feels like I have a troll sitting on my shoulders that is using my head as a drum. When I talk I can't pronounce anthing correctly, because it seems like all the information is trying to get out all at the same time. I should go to bed, and I will. I just felt like I needed to write this blogpost before I go hug my pillow, and pretend to be a bear going into hybernation.

So there it is.. Now, I will go sleep.. Good night cuties. And for those of you who have exams left, good luck to all of you!

I just ended up calling it Fade into me, because I was listening to this song while I finished editing.